Well this is the feeling for the week. This song is called Maybe by Sick Puppies. I heard it on Vh1 top twenty count down. So enjoy.

Random Thoughts on Monday's doctor's appointment

1. I'm scared, I mean what If I do have PCOS.  Will I still be able to lead a normal life.
2. Since PCOS is a hormonal imbalance, is that why I flip shit on my mom about once a week.
3. I will be able to loose weight and look normal compared to how short I am.
4. Will my periods become regular.
5. One of the symptoms of PCOS is that you get hair in unwanted places, What the Hell is that supposed to mean?
6. Will I be on medicine for the rest of my life.
7. Do you now how scary it is to think that you might never have children, even if at the moment you are telling you never want to have kids?
8. Will I get diabetes?
9. Even if I have children, will I pass it to my daughter, I mean my mother has it?
10. Where should I go to eat after my appointment?

Morning Ideas

    Plain uncreative name I know, but its the morning so what do  you expect. Today I have to give an in-class presentation. This is a very bad thing. I get so nervous, and shaky. I start to stutter, every ones eyes are judgmentally piercing my skin. I know, I know deep breaths. But if someone tells me one more time that I have to picture the class naked I will kick their shins. I'm sorry, but that is really creepy, I don't want to see those people in their underwear.
    On the other hand my presentation is basically kick ass, and I have a "presenting plan" which I hope helps me.  My mom let me sleep in today because of the presentation, I barely slept last night, and I hardly have any clothes to wear today. So I will definitely skip History, and maybe some of Bio which is okay, because we aren't doing anything besides taking notes, that I can copy off of someone else. So far today's feeling is stress...stress....stress.

Squirrels

I promised myself that I wouldn't make a big deal about the first post, but I guess it's too late for that now.
School was cancled today, so I decided to change blogs. Right when I finished the design part, I took a look ouside my window, and you will never believe what I saw. Squirrel Sex. Which by the way is not the scariest thing I have seen today, being that my mom's boyfreind stayed the night. (but that is a story for another time)
I also had my therapist appointment. There was no progress, just the thousandth realization that my step mom has been on a decade long power trip, and that she has my fathers man parts in her purse.
Later I went my dads but that was the same as normal.
Out of my eventful day the only thing that really stands out to me is, well...squirrels. Have you ever really thought about how easy squirrels have it?What if we could turn into a squirrel whenever we wanted. All we would have to do is eat, sleep, store nuts, avoid cars, and have sex on trees without ever reaping the harsh, dramatic, human consequences to their actions.
Then again every thing sounds better. We're humans we're never satisfied, thats just what we do. Take Pip from Great Expectations for example. That stupid boy will never be happy.