Focus

Well, for the past week I have been doing my homework like the good little girl that I am. Tonight being the only night I actually had spare time to actually finish my homework, I can't do it! My concentration flew out the window. Why do we go through phases where we just don't feel like it?
Our minds are constantly racing a mile per minute always focusing on what's next rather then the task at hand. That is where the focus goes. Now, for the first time in our lives we must stop thinking ahead. Reminder: thinking ahead isn't negative, there are just certain situations thar call for it, and those who don't. When we are constantly fantasizing about what is to come how do we get the little fortune teller inside to shut up for five seconds? Maybe then we can focus on how we are getting there instead of where we are going.

The next morning I woke up energetic, it was Friday so I was automatically happy. I went through school on auto-pilot. Once home I began the lock-in by meditating. I determined as usual that my mind was cluttered. And, as usual I believed the problem stemmed from my bedroom. I can't count how many times I have posted about how messy it is, or how many times I cleaned it and some life altering revelation came to me. But, at the same time it is so true! As soon as you clean your room or your mind, something is always there to mess it up all over again. In a world of constant clutter, how can we manage to keep everything neat, organized, and simple?

I cleaned my room yet to find the answer. What I did know is that I didn't feel much better. Now I was stressing over this mountain load of homework due for Monday. I was two steps closer to zen. I just had to get through he third obstacle, my school work. It took hours to complete, I wasn't finished with it until 9:00 Saturday night. For some crazy reason, when I was little, I thought I would have some sort of social life. Instead, I stay at home in my pj's, listening to big band and swing, and doing homework. And the sad thing is, every adult. I know does says it net gets better. They would give up just about anything to be fifteen again. If this is boing to be the best part of my life, I better brace myself for the long miserable road ahead.

Lock-in

It's Thursday night and I just declared lock-in. I need to stay in my room as much as I can until I figure out what is wrong with me. My first problem would be the general lack of energy I am experiencing. So, right now at 8:12 pm on October 27, 2011 I, Katie, went to bed early for the first time in my whole high school career. Consider problem number one solved, I need more sleep!